Died at 9.30pm

If you really have the heart
Then you wouldn’t have the heart..
If you really cared
Then you wouldn’t have cared..
If you really said
Then you wouldn’t have said..
If you really respected
Then you wouldn’t have respected..
If you really intended
Then you wouldn’t have intended..
If you really wanted
Then you wouldn’t have wanted..
If you really anticipated
Then you wouldn’t have anticipated..
that I died today
You died too.

Cured

cure me.
break me.
tear me.
broken.
torn.
life goes on.

cured.

Cinta Kasih Sayang

Sayang itu seluruh nyawa.

tidak disayangi, separuh nyawa pergi,

tidak menyayangi, separuh nyawa mati.


Cinta itu seluruh hidup.

tidak dicintai, separuh hidup gundah,

tidah menyintai, separuh hidup musnah.



Kasih itu selamanya.

tidak dikasihi, tidak mungkin terjadi,

hingga akhir nanti, Allah maha mengasihi.


(p/s: this is my first Malay poem)

Rest in peace

My head sunk into a deep, soft pillow,

My body buried under a silky fluffy duvet,

My heart stopped bleeding for one day,

My mind stopped ticking till Sunday.

She Tells Her Love

She tells her love while half asleep,

In the dark hours,

With half words whispered low;

As earth stirs in her winter sleep

And puts out grass and flowers

Despite the snow,

Despite the falling snow.

Dear Love,

And my eyes tear every time I remind myself

I have tried and I have failed

It hurts like daggers on the inside

The only happy thought that keeps me going

Is knowing that I am loved by you

It makes my whole life ahead worth living.

Thou Art

I love the way

you look at me,

Your eyes

gleaming bright,

Staring into the depth

of my soul,

Everything feels right.



The world stops for

a moment,

Fireworks dazzle

in distance,

Birds chirp on

the windowsill,

Sweet music

pushing silence.



And the honest

truth is,

Without you,

I’m not whole,

And forever

I will love you.

If truth,

then truth be told.



And I’m truly sorry,

For every bit

of suffering,

No matter what you say

or do,

It was not my intention

to hurt you.

If you do love me

Utter I love you

If you don't

My heart

will cry out for you.





I look forward

to an entire life,

Without wishing

for things

I couldn’t have,

I’m happy for

everything that’s true,

Knowing that

I was loved by you

True to Your Heart

I hold it true, whate'er befall;

I feel it, when I sorrow most;

'Tis better to have loved and lost

Than never to have loved at all

Night

Peaceful night

Times I talk to you

Times I cry with you

Times I kiss your lips



Beautiful night

Always wish you happiness

Always wish you love

Always wish you warmth



Moonlit night

I love you

I miss you

I need you



Breezy night

We cuddle

We sit by a fireplace

We mind read



You night

Close to your heart

Listen to your beat

Melt in your embrace



With you

My heart

Skips a beat

Good night

Disturbia

I wish I were a kite

With no strings attached

I wish you hadn’t

Pulled my strings

My heartfelt stings

Just as I’m about to regain

My pinnacle of joy

You pull me down again

Down, down, down

I want to bring

My own sunshine

Everywhere I go

But all you can offer is rain

And I am drenched

With nowhere to go

In a fog, dark and gloomy

My sunshine bright

But your darkness overshadows

The light

If I were a kite

With no strings attached

I would soar high

And go to a desolate place

To meet sunshine so bright

So that I can bring it back to you

Your lightning and thunder

won’t bring me down

because I will bring sunshine

wherever I go

Just so you know

I am a reflection of you

You left me out in the rain

Far too long

But I don’t hate you

Because I bring sunshine

Wherever I go

I love you still

Please

let me feel the wind

On my skin

Please

let me be

A kite for a split second

And I’ll bring back

Your sunshine

I promise

My Duvet

Till then,

I'll be under the duvet,

Crispy white velvety duvet,

Till my heart becomes lighter,

And my world becomes brighter,

I'll fall in deep slumber,

In sweet warm embrace,

And I don't need you

Under the duvet,

I won't cry for you

Under the duvet,

I shall not miss you

Under the duvet,

I'll be waiting for you

If that's okay.

I love you dearly,

even if it were surly,

I'll be here

under the duvet.Till then,

I'll be under the duvet,

Crispy white velvety duvet,

Till my heart becomes lighter,

And my world becomes brighter,

I'll fall in deep slumber,

In sweet warm embrace,

And I don't need you

Under the duvet,

I won't cry for you

Under the duvet,

I shall not miss you

Under the duvet,

I'll be waiting for you

If that's okay.

I love you dearly,

even if it were surly,

I'll be here

under the duvet.

Sorrow

When you are sorrowful



look again in your heart,



and you shall see



that in truth



you are weeping



for that



which has been your delight.







-- Kahlil Gibran

Who Would

Who would love me to death?

Who whould think me to be

the most beautiful being on earth?

Who would care for me and worry for me

when I'm sick to my bones?

Who would embrace me and kiss

my tears away

when my world falls apart?

Who would make me a meal

when I'm down and depressed?

Who would give me food for love?

Who would buy me gifts

just because.

Who would buy me supplements

when I look like a zombie?

Who would call me gorgeous

when I become that zombie?

Who would even care?

No one would

but you,

only you,

All the more reasons

I love you.

Magical

Always, deep within my soul,

I know we have a love

like no other.

What we share is

something

Others only hope for

and dream of,

But few ever experience.

Our love is magical,

beyond belief.



Always, without hesitation,

you give of yourself

completely.

You have reached

the very depths of my soul,

Bringing out emotions

I never knew I had

and unveiling an ability to love

I never thought possible. 

Tea-cher

A millionbillionwillion miles from home

Waiting for the bell to go. (To go where?)

Why are they all so big, other children?

So noisy? So much at home they

Must have been born in uniform

Lived all their lives in playgrounds

Spent the years inventing games

That don't let me in. Games

That are rough, that swallow you up.

And the railings.All around, the railings.

Are they to keep out wolves and monsters?

Things that carry off and eat children?

Things you don't take sweets from?

Perhaps they're to stop us getting out

Running away from the lessins.

Lessin.What does a lessin look like?

Sounds small and slimy.

They keep them in the glassrooms.

Whole rooms made out of glass. Imagine.

I wish I could remember my name

Mummy said it would come in useful.

Like wellies. When there's puddles.

Yellowwellies. I wish she was here.

I think my name is sewn on somewhere

Perhaps the teacher will read it for me.

Tea-cher. The one who makes the tea. 



by Roger McGough

A Paradox

"You are doomed to make choices.This is life's greatest paradox."— Dr. Wayne Dyer quote

His Wife

So long as I shall live.

My husband.

I want to be a wife who dedicates her life to you.

My husband.

I want to be a wife who loves you, and only you.

My husband.

I want to be a wife who'll remain faithful by your side.

My husband.

I want to be a wife who sings your name in praise.

My husband.

I want to be a wife who treats you kingly.

My husband.

I want to look into your eyes and fall in love.

My husband.

I want to be a wife who'd never hurt your pride.

My husband.

I want to be a wife who cares for your thoughts.

My husband.

At any stage she is not wife. I'd despise her.

With tears in my eyes.

Till the end of my breath.

My husband.

Heart Ache

If only you could see my heart. You'd understand.
You're written all over it like the daily newspaper.
If only you could read my mind.
You'd listen to your name on the top chart,
As its played over and over like the annoying adverts on the radio.
If only you knew what your smile means to me,
Its when I sparkle and flicker like the moonlight,
If only you knew how your eyes affect my soul,
Its when my eyelashes flutter like butterflies.
You'd know how deep I love you
If you could read my mind,
see my heart and my soul.
How I long to be with you.
Everytime you're not around,
You take my heart with you,
And I whisper your name to give it back.
But you don't hear, you don't see, you don't read.

If Love Is

I do believe in soul mates
Lucky perceptive soul
Of hugs and kisses, oh more than that

Vulnerable to adhering
Envying the smallest gestures
Yet the agony
Of never wanting to be solitary

Unbelievably calm
Masculine, soaring, charming
Otherwise sweetest smile

He comforts sorrow away
Deals with anger and pain
Acts rationally, wisely
Revolves around others

Indeed love is
For him
For he is wonderful

To Be A Mommy

What does it mean to be a woman?
To wash the dishes,
To cook and clean,
To do the laundry,
To mop the floors..

What does it mean to be a woman?
To be a wife,
To be the meal planner,
To be the one who waits at tea..
To be the ironing lady too..

What does it mean to be a woman?
To be the household provider,
To be the driver,
TO be the worker,
To be the supervisor..

What does it mean to be a woman?
To be kind yet rough
To be soft-spoken yet out-spoken
To be gentle yet tough
To be be respectful yet respected..

What does it mean to be a woman?
To be pwetty, pwetty,
To be sexy and playful,
To be 34-24-34,
To be silky, soft, and fair..


But wait,
Is that all?
That's a quarter
The other is a mother.